Day38 Year2013

Mood: Sleepy
Time: 2324hrs

Where would I even start?
Too tired from the happenings of just a mere few days. I can't give out the details since it would blurt out some signs as of who I am in real life. Just that its too tiring since I haven't rested enough to regain the past day's worth of energy expended. Really, I'm not used to exerting myself physically especially regarding activities and such. Made fun of a certain "person" in real life and just had a blast living life to the fullest ( I think).

I'm busy studying now. Yes, I study whenever I have the time and the drive to do so. In fact, I love learning new things everyday and that is the main reason why I love hanging out on google. I also feel comfortable whenever I'm surrounded by piles of projects even though there's no certainty that I would finish everything. Lols....

I also love downloading movies and stuff but after a while when I've completed downloading them, I don't use the time to watch it. I get bored since I have the ability to move forward through the scenes, I can have a peek at the ending and the specific "juicy" parts.

And like I am now, I'm bored.
Though I have deadlines and stuff, I don't have the drive to continue anymore. I just want a whole day free for myself. I don't want to be tied by people around and dictating my life again. I hate persistent people. It's like they're saying you're indebted to make them happy or do things for them. How sad that I am tied again by reciprocating circumstances. In short, I HATE where I am right now.

As if I asked to be given grace in the first place. I'm no beggar.
Hate, hate, hate,hate, I hate how I am tied by "utang na loob". *shit*




Why can't I just KILL the people I hate this easily?
Shit for banning killing, even though its INHUMANE....

Day33 Year2013

Mood: HungOver
Time: 2231hrs



So today was a bit weird. People came over the house and we drank this small bottle of liquor but the after-effect was so devastating. Never realized how weak I can be towards alcoholic drinks. Anyway, it didn't feel bad with that person over despite my countless hesitation before. Just had a mild headache and tired from taking care of the guests.

So, Valentine's Day is just around the corner. Everywhere I look in the mall, there are hearts plastered around. Just earlier, we saw a couple displaying their love openly and I commented, "they'll eventually break up." Yeah, I'm bitter toward this kind of season. How I freakin' HATE it!

If you love one another and is so lovey-dovey, don't rub it in!
Maybe you'll appreciate it more if I come over and break you two lovebirds apart, huh?!
Well, it lands on Thursday, and I'm still not sure if we have classes then, but VDay isn't a Holiday so I think that would mean a "yes"?

On my part, on the other hand, I'm piling up on movies and reading materials for the coming D-Day, or so I'd like to call. Also, will be busy doing that pesky project at school. Going solo-flight since everyone around me is so incompetent and thinks I'm "that" good or "kind" that I'd finish everything and let them have their leisurely days not minding anything. Yes, Fuck them.


So, I'm tired and would like to tuck in for the night. I hope that person doesn't get the wrong idea that the place would be a nice nest for hang-out, since this is the last Eden where I could be me and relax without thinking about "her".

Hope I get to sleep as well and tomorrow would be another busy day filled with plenty of projects to complete and tasks to do and also books to read.